so today I went on a spontaneous field trip to the Tulips Festival ...it was a pretty fun day because the weather was beautiful and I got to know some people a lil better which is always a good thing! here are some pictures some pretty flowers...

Diane and I in front of the purple patch...

Steven and me

the rows are so perfect!

Mike taking a picture with the ladies...

pretty in pink!

Steven taking a picture with the ladies...

close up of the reds...

he makes me smile...

It was an amazing day, but very tiring because it felt like such a long day. To get there, we were stuck in traffic and to get out of there, we got stuck in even worse traffic...so in the car on our way out, Diane and I took a nice, relaxing nap...and everywhere that we went after that, we got stuck in traffic, it was a crazy day...thanks for driving Mike!

    So this is what happens when I can't sleep...I start thinking about everything that's going on in my life or everything that's not going on ...whichever...but I begin to analyze myself as a person. And lately I guess I've been feeling a little lonely, I don't know why because I know that God has provided me with everything that I need, but yet I still harbor this feeling. It's so hard to just surrender because I always want to do what I want and to surrender to Him means to have faith that He will lead the way. There are things that I want to do and it's so easy to just want to put God aside and be selfish...but then the after math sucks because I just see Him shaking his head at me... Being obedient is hard...it sounds easy, but when it comes down to it, I know that I need to be a more obedient daughter of my Father in heaven. Maybe that's why I've been feeling lonely...hmm...I don't know, I just thankful for everything that He has provided for me and as long as I follow His ways, I know that I will find my promised land.
    Lately I've been dealing with some family problems and it's been bringing me down just because I don't know what I can do to help anymore. I feel like I've tried everything and it's only getting worse. All I can do now is pray and leave it up to God...and it's hard because I want to be able to fix it and make it all better...I've always been able to get through to this particular person in the family, but it's gotten to the point where they know where I'm coming from and wants to change, but doesn't want it enough to give up their current lifestyle with the fear of lonliness. It kills me to see where this person is heading because we grew up together and I love my family with all my heart...
    School and work has also been occupying with my time, but those are areas of my life where I don't worry about too much...I'm a good student! hehe My relationships with  the ones I love have been going pretty well, although sometimes I do get frustrated...we won't talk about that ...well being the good student that I am, I should probably go to sleep and stop filling my mind up...